What Does Expanded Awareness Benefit You?
Lately, the past few weeks, I have had many occasions to take a look back over the course of the past two to three years. There was a time when I would look back and the path behind me looked fuzzy and bleak even. Now I turn around on occasion and look back down that road and it is a beautiful road. It’s autumn and the leaves are so many wonderful colors along the tree lined street. There is a reason why I look back and the view is different. Awareness and understanding changes what you look back and see. Release of emotional baggage, forgiveness of self and others, and most importantly an understanding of self and who the true self is changes what you look back and see.
I can look back and see decisions I made that got me here. One important decision I want to discuss and the reason I wanted to write this today is a decision to rely almost solely on higher level spirits, including my higher self, for my spiritual and psychic education. Like many of you in the beginning when I was first starting to awaken and I had awakened my empathy fully I wanted to be around others like me. Others who would understand and not think I was weird or a freak. I felt I needed to be around those who had started down the path before me, the ones who had the answers. Of course that all made sense at the time, a time when I felt alone because no one in my circle of peeps at the time could comprehend what I was going through or even had an open enough mind to consider the things I was experiencing as reality. I consider myself very fortunate because early on I got a strong feeling that I needed to go it alone. By alone I mean just me and my guides, the ascended masters, archangels, and God. Even though I considered my ability to communicate with spirit at that time mediocre I learned to listen when I could hear, understand what I could when I felt, and learned the symbolism of dreams and nature. If I had it to do all over again I wouldn’t wish for kick ass clairaudience so it would be easier because now I realize that I learned more from nature, dreams and expanded awareness as I advanced than I would have from hearing a sentence or two. What I am saying is that I put my trust in THEM and SELF and they made everyday life and every part of it my classroom.
I did eventually learn that my original longing to be in a group with others who understood and accepted me to be fear based and a part of the negative ego. Of course I am not saying being in a group is bad but that if the reason for wanting to be there is something negative then that must eventually be resolved if you are to advance spiritually. If you do go the route of the group, be thankful, compassionate and understanding of your group but know when it is time to let go. My son is starting Kindergarten tomorrow (OMG…Tomorrow! Lol) and for the past five years every where he has gone I have driven him. I took him to his doctors appointments and didn’t leave his side, I took him to pre-school and saw him into his classroom safely, I took him to karate since he was two and was present for everything he learned, was tested on and every moment of advancement, I was with him outside as he played, and I never took my eyes off him as he played on the playground at the park. Tomorrow I will put him on a bus and he will be on his own…because it is time. So know when it is time for you to finally go off on your own and do it like my son is, fearless and with child-like excitement.
The journey may be new, the path you’re going down may be unknown to you, but you were born with everything you needed to succeed.
Don’t think for a minute that I made all right decisions. Believe me I made my share of decisions that either stopped me from moving forward or put me on the wrong path temporarily. Those decisions that had me making wrong turns down one way streets were necessary and there was always something to be learned from the things that on the outside seemed bad.
There is a point where you look back and the way you came just looks so awful, long and hard but then one day you wake up, and I am talking about expanded awareness, and all those things that made the path behind you look so awful actually make the path behind you the most beautiful road you have ever seen. Yes, when you can finally realize, and with a smile on your face and in your heart, that those things of the past had to happen just as they did. They were never wrong, but things that you yourself planned for to learn the lessons you needed to learn.
And what of those other players? The people in your life who you have struggled with, who did bad things to you, who seemed to be your road blocks and the cause of the emotional distresses that had you seeking out therapy, your priest or led you to addictions. What of them? They played the role they were requested to play for you. For the longest time I couldn’t figure out how I was suppose to only feel love for the people who were playing those roles in my life. I questioned so many times how I was ever going to be able to look at them and only feel love, compassion and understanding for them. I am not going to give you the answer because that would be easy but possibly gain you nothing. I am instead going to paint a picture for you.
Imagine that it is a time before your incarnation and you are sitting at a big conference table. This is a meeting you want to be at unlike the office meetings you may suffer through at your job. Lol. Around this table sits you and all the players in your life. The spirits who are good friends of yours on the other side who are going to play the role of your parents, siblings’, spouse, and friends. The spirit who is going to be the one who car jacks you and puts you in the hospital is there too and you smile at each other because you love each other very much and have since the beginning of your existence. The spirit who plays the role of the cheating husband who breaks your heart is there also for the meeting and although you love him in spirit you will end up hating him in life more than you hate anyone else. This meeting is for you, to discuss the roles everyone will play and the lessons they will help you to learn. You are the one more or less in charge of this meeting and are calling the shots. You have attended many meeting like this before in the past and gotten briefed on the role you are going to play in someone’s life. They each have in front of them notes you handed out, that you created yourself, which explain their roles and what you want them to do. It’s all your doing and you’re heading up that meeting with all in attendance being spirits you love so much.
Forget about whether or not you believe that scenario is possible and contemplate what you think if it is true and how you see the players in your life with that scenario I mind. Can you see the spirit you love so much on the other side who ends up being the man who car jacks you in a different light? Can you maybe see that he made a sacrifice for you by playing that role? He loved you so much he would play a role that would end up wrecking havoc on him because of cause and effect. Can you see that the role he is playing in your life helps you with a lesson but also is most likely a lesson for him as well? Can you see that you are both working at the same thing with the same goal of spiritual advancement? When you know the truth does forgiveness maybe come easier? Is compassion a little bit easier to give to your parents, siblings’, spouse, etc. with that expanded awareness? Okay the answer may be no right now and if it is that is okay. As your awareness expands understanding comes and you will be ready for it when it comes and it is not something that can be forced because you want to speed along on your spiritual journey. Just relax and enjoy the ride!
