My beloved I AM presence, the God that is in me has been talking to me and trying to make me understand something important. He, God, my I AM presence, moves through me. I know he is guiding me and it is so obvious but it was also torturing me a little every time I have been guided, have followed, but then didn’t know why I had to do things that I am guided to do. Some of them went against what I would normally say is a right thing to do and so were so far removed from what I would normally think Is right to do that it also had me feeling guilt for some of my action even though God would almost immediately show me that what I was guided to do affected a changed that made a difference in someone’s life. I am talking about saying certain things to people or being guided to go to someone’s house to visit them as though unbeknownst to my presence was needed. When it came to my neighbor who is/was suffering from alcoholism I kept praying to God to help her…that no matter how bad things got for her it didn’t seem to be her bottom, as in hitting bottom that some need to hit in order to see that they must change. I asked God specifically to help her hit that bottom that she would need to hit. Things happened and I found myself in the middle of them. I found myself actively in the middle of them and taking actions that I knew was right cause God was giving me this feeling like “Yeah, go ahead and do this and do that” even though normally I wouldn’t believe my actions to be the best choice. But I trusted and God showed me that my actions affected a change…but I think at the same time I still missed the point of the lesson.