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I have written before about my son. I figure maybe my experiences and how I handle them might help others…or be an example of what not to do. lol.

Speaking of what not to do, do not try and argue with an empath toddler that is being affected by negative emotions they have picked up…because in the end there will be no winners although once your head explodes from frustration you will swear the child won. lol. However if you have a citrine crystal…sit him or her down hand them the crystal and talk to them…talk slowly. Talking slowly to someone has a calming hypnotic affect. Talk sweetly and lovingly the crystal will do the work of absorbing the negative emotions and break most of the connections. I say most cause it’s a crystal but not a magic wand. lol.

Well the title of the post says it all I think. I receive a call from my childs school recently, it’s a Christian School and I mention that because…well I’m not sure. Maybe I think they should be more sympathetic because of that. The office called and told me I needed to come get my son because they thought there was something wrong with him and they weren’t sure what but they had just come in from playing and my son complained of a stomach ache and even was rolling around on the floor crying and screaming and because of that they thought he really had a stomach ache. I thought it odd because he he had never behaved that way before and even they mentioned that. I asked them to put him on the phone and to make a long story short at my insistance that I would take him to the doctor after picking him up he admitted he didn’t have a stomach ache and just wanted to come home. By the way he is 4 yrs old and really great at making things up and is very convincing. lol. I knew two main things that were wrong almost immediately. He has Sickle Cell Traits and he needed more water after having been outside for at least 30 minutes running around and playing. The second thing was that I was sure he had picked up a connection to someone because they said one second he was fine and the next second he wasn’t. That sudden change of the way he felt and his mood was a big clue. Since I live close to the school I went to the school and found him in the lunch room sitting in a chair by himself next to the door. They treat children who may be sick, regardless of the illness, as though they may be contagious and need to be isolated. Yeah, right, isolation always makes me feel better, how about you? lol. Anyway, I placed my citrine crystal in his hand and asked him to hold it for me as I started talking to him about how he felt. I just chatted with him because on the ride over I cleared his connections and protected him. I also asked Archangel Michael and Jesus to stay with him and keep him clear of connetions and help him. I got an immediate confirmation that they would. After a few minutes of chatting with my son he stated that he wanted water and to eat, which he had been refusing to do and this also helped to convince the teachers that something was wrong with him. But with the connections cleared and then him holding the citrine crystal and that absorbing any energy to started feeling better right away.

THE DREAM

I was it what looked like my living room but it looks bigger and even more open. There were lots of toy all over the place. There was a little black girl that was looked to be about 5 years old…she looked like how I looked when I was that age and had this cute little dress on that looks like one I had. She was so sweet looking and innocent. She was playing. She walk over to this coffee table that looked like the coffee table from when we lived in Newburgh, NY. But she tripped or feel over something and hit the table in a weird way where she hit it with her whole body bent over it and hit it also so hard on the top that she was knocked out cold. I freaked and ran over and grabbed her and held her in my arms and started screaming for help. My mother had been out in the back yard and came running in. She said something about “You spanked her so hard that she passed out?!” I got pissed and said of course not. I was really mad that she said that. Then I tried to explain what happened.

INTERPRETATION

Unresolved issues going back to when I was a little girl. Issues that were never dealt with. From the time I was little I was bullied and control by my parents and still to this day they bully me, guilt trip me and try to control me. The harder I fight back and try and resist them the uglier it gets. In my waking state I feel like I am fighting two of the worlds scariest demons. This dream clearly shows the unresolved issues and also the fact that I am clueless to how to resolve the issues and how much it is bothering me. The in my face scarey confrontations with harsh hurtful words that I experience quite often from my mother happens again in this dream…it is about my feelings of my parents always blaming me for everything and always pointing the finger like “What did you do now?!” And also shows how I always react by trying desperately to explain myself almost as though I have to convince her of how things really are versus the way she is seeing them and misunderstanding me.

My inner child is still cowering in the corner afraid to come out because she is still not as strong as these people who are her parents. I still don’t know how to deal with the bullies who torture me but I don’t let people see how bad things are inside and I portray a person who is totally together, strong and can handle anything.

SYMBOLISM/MEANINGS

Living Room - To dream that you are in the living room, represents the image that you portray to others and the way which you go about your life. It is representative of your basic beliefs about yourself and who you are.

Furniture - Represents how you feel about yourself and your family. It refers to your relationships with others and how they fit into your life.

Coffee Table – Wood and always super polished. I remember it as not ever having anything on it. It was actually a very inexpensive coffee table but with that high gloss finish and the way my mother kept it polished it looked very expensive and classy. “Looks can be deceiving!”

Furniture & High Polished Coffee Table – Putting the two together makes more sense to me. Now it reminds me of those activities children do in school where they pick ou which object does not belong. That coffee table most definitely does not belong in my life. If it were in my living room it would stick out like a sore thumb. It would be the one thing you could point out and say that it does not belong. And regarding how I feel about myself and my family I feel that we are all living a big fat lie. I feel that my parents have pulled off the biggest charade, posing as loving parents and spouse that are kind and supportive. I see them as wolves in sheeps clothing and they put the sheep costume on for family and friends but they do not wear the sheep costumes for me…they take it off behind closed doors and show their true colors with sharp claws and all.

Toys – Childhood, Domestic Joy and Harmony. They were in the living room so it means that I try to make it seem that domestically everything is fine. Maybe also about my childhood and how I feel that there was an appearance that everything was perfect when things were far from perfect in my world.

Little girl – longing for the past and the chance to satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurtured. Also signifies my attempts to save a part of myself from being destroyed.

Little girl being hurt - signifies wounded emotions or feelings that you may have suppressed. You need to address these feelings in order to properly heal.

Little girl being knocked out - unable to consciously confront the issues or the topic that is being raised by the unconscious. In the dream, internal forces, images or emotions that may be to powerful for us to process may have an overwhelming effect on the dream ego and passing out/fainting occurs. Fainting in your dream suggests that you are unable to consciously confront the issues or the topic that is being raised by the unconscious. In daily life, we faint when we are ill or when we are overcome by environmental forces (i.e. heat, smells, a traumatic event or a dramatic visual image). The fainting dream may be the first step in a process of becoming more aware of a particular area of your life.