THE DREAM

I was it what looked like my living room but it looks bigger and even more open. There were lots of toy all over the place. There was a little black girl that was looked to be about 5 years old…she looked like how I looked when I was that age and had this cute little dress on that looks like one I had. She was so sweet looking and innocent. She was playing. She walk over to this coffee table that looked like the coffee table from when we lived in Newburgh, NY. But she tripped or feel over something and hit the table in a weird way where she hit it with her whole body bent over it and hit it also so hard on the top that she was knocked out cold. I freaked and ran over and grabbed her and held her in my arms and started screaming for help. My mother had been out in the back yard and came running in. She said something about “You spanked her so hard that she passed out?!” I got pissed and said of course not. I was really mad that she said that. Then I tried to explain what happened.

INTERPRETATION

Unresolved issues going back to when I was a little girl. Issues that were never dealt with. From the time I was little I was bullied and control by my parents and still to this day they bully me, guilt trip me and try to control me. The harder I fight back and try and resist them the uglier it gets. In my waking state I feel like I am fighting two of the worlds scariest demons. This dream clearly shows the unresolved issues and also the fact that I am clueless to how to resolve the issues and how much it is bothering me. The in my face scarey confrontations with harsh hurtful words that I experience quite often from my mother happens again in this dream…it is about my feelings of my parents always blaming me for everything and always pointing the finger like “What did you do now?!” And also shows how I always react by trying desperately to explain myself almost as though I have to convince her of how things really are versus the way she is seeing them and misunderstanding me.

My inner child is still cowering in the corner afraid to come out because she is still not as strong as these people who are her parents. I still don’t know how to deal with the bullies who torture me but I don’t let people see how bad things are inside and I portray a person who is totally together, strong and can handle anything.

SYMBOLISM/MEANINGS

Living Room – To dream that you are in the living room, represents the image that you portray to others and the way which you go about your life. It is representative of your basic beliefs about yourself and who you are.

Furniture – Represents how you feel about yourself and your family. It refers to your relationships with others and how they fit into your life.

Coffee Table – Wood and always super polished. I remember it as not ever having anything on it. It was actually a very inexpensive coffee table but with that high gloss finish and the way my mother kept it polished it looked very expensive and classy. “Looks can be deceiving!”

Furniture & High Polished Coffee Table – Putting the two together makes more sense to me. Now it reminds me of those activities children do in school where they pick ou which object does not belong. That coffee table most definitely does not belong in my life. If it were in my living room it would stick out like a sore thumb. It would be the one thing you could point out and say that it does not belong. And regarding how I feel about myself and my family I feel that we are all living a big fat lie. I feel that my parents have pulled off the biggest charade, posing as loving parents and spouse that are kind and supportive. I see them as wolves in sheeps clothing and they put the sheep costume on for family and friends but they do not wear the sheep costumes for me…they take it off behind closed doors and show their true colors with sharp claws and all.

Toys – Childhood, Domestic Joy and Harmony. They were in the living room so it means that I try to make it seem that domestically everything is fine. Maybe also about my childhood and how I feel that there was an appearance that everything was perfect when things were far from perfect in my world.

Little girl – longing for the past and the chance to satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurtured. Also signifies my attempts to save a part of myself from being destroyed.

Little girl being hurt – signifies wounded emotions or feelings that you may have suppressed. You need to address these feelings in order to properly heal.

Little girl being knocked out – unable to consciously confront the issues or the topic that is being raised by the unconscious. In the dream, internal forces, images or emotions that may be to powerful for us to process may have an overwhelming effect on the dream ego and passing out/fainting occurs. Fainting in your dream suggests that you are unable to consciously confront the issues or the topic that is being raised by the unconscious. In daily life, we faint when we are ill or when we are overcome by environmental forces (i.e. heat, smells, a traumatic event or a dramatic visual image). The fainting dream may be the first step in a process of becoming more aware of a particular area of your life.